Sad times

I'm feeling quite fragile at the moment after the tragic and sad death of our 4 year old cat, Chile, on Tuesday 2nd December 2014 at 02.15 am.  I am always up at that time and he collapsed and died in front of me, I can't get the image of him out of my mind.  I gathered him up in my arms and ran into  the lounge where my husband was, but Chile had already passed.  So very traumatic and unfair.  We have 4 other cats and they are all looking around for him.  I took Chile to the vet at 8 am and they rang to say they couldn't find anything conclusive as to the cause of death.  His heart, lungs and other organs were fine, and he was a young cat in good condition, so the thinking is that he had a brain haemorrhage.  He was my pal and used to sit on me and lean into my shoulder, and I miss that closeness terribly.  Although we have lost cats over the years and it was always so very hard, they had all reached 18 years and had to be euthanized due to old age and ill health, that's why Chile's sudden death is so hard to deal with. We loved him so much and he will always be in our hearts  xx